Improvements In Life :)

Hi Lovelies !

How have you been ? Hopefully things are good for you guys !

Life have been good for me ! I'm happy to say that it's improving ! I'm starting to learn to love life more recently !

Joined a modeling competition, strived my best , BELIEVED and i managed to make it to the top ! I was so happy ! I will continue to strive harder, for my next dream !

Blog shop business is going real slow nowadays.

I have been studying a lot , trying to pull up my GPA to at least a reasonable one ! I've been regreting for not putting in much more effort last semester. Due to my results last semester, i'm unable to get into a local university for sure , no matter how much harder i am willing to work now for it ! :( Well, so now i'm destined to go to a private university ! Ahh well. All the expensive school fees !~  But i'm still holding on to this hope that i can get at least 3.8 by the end of three years ! haha !

I'm like studying everyday, doing all tutorials, i think i just became a 101% good student. LOL. I've never been so hardworking man ! haha, just hope this maintains. But all these hard work proved to worth it. I managed to score much better for my accounting. haha !

I've been trying my best to do sports at least once a week. I want to be pretty and slim , so i will strive hard for it ! Oh ya ! I took up tennis as well ! :) Bought a pink tennis racket, it looks so pretty and with my new super pretty pink nike shoes! Tennis is a super fun sport ! Moreover the skirts are like so pretty ! OMG ! haha ! I sound like i'm taking up tennis just because of the apparels and accessories that i can buy and use ! haha .

Hehe, so well, things are going really well for me ! Hopefully it can get even better as days goes by !

So i'm signing off now with pictures of myself, yes, haters gonna' hate ! haha !



p/s : Currently in Internet Web Technologies lesson, am dozing away. It's like pressing buttons session ! hahaha ! 

BYE LOVELIES <3 <3 <3

Till then......

life's lesson

Hey lovelies ,

It's been so long since i last posted something here.

Life's really busy, many things happened.

Flung my papers, trying my very best to make sure that I'm able to pull my grades to somewhere that can at least get me a place in a local university.

Haven't been talking much to friends ever since school started. Suddenly I feel gaps between my friends and I. Is it me or we just drifted.

But honestly I know partially its me who refused to speak up as well. I don't know why as well, somehow I'm becoming more and more closed-up.

No one seems to know why I'm working so hard. People sees it as I'm money minded, I'm forever trying to get more and more money so that I can afford more stuffs for myself.

Honestly, its not like this. And it irks me when people think like this.

If I just needed money to buy all the stuffs I need, I could've been a spoilt girl and just ask from my parents every single day.

I have unspoken reasons, and reasons that I can't reveal here , so please don't judge.

I'm so tired of being judged and all, seriously, just screw it.

People see me as unfriendly, arrogant , or what ever, I can't be bothered anymore.

I just want to live my life well. I'm not here to satisfy everyone. Really.

Growing so tired of making everyone happy.

The sight of looking at pampered kids nowadays, throwing away food that they just don't like to eat because of one simple factor - the mushroom is uncooked, irks me. What a spoilt child.

Let me be honest, I totally despise kids like that. Hello ?! People in Africa is starving to death.

Looking at such children, I wonder how my future will be like.... Sigh.

However hard life is, no matter what I am going through, no matter how high my stress level is , I just got to be optimistic and move on, isn't it ?

Sigh. This is life....

All I know is that. I do things for a reason, I dont do things just for the sake of doing.

Friends, if I'm like unfriendly to you, please let me know.

There's really too many things happening, sometimes I can really be super unaware of my own actions.

So please...

Till then...

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The Decision......

All along , i've got this love for the entertainment industry.

Ever since young, i'll always be found at music schools, singing competitions, auditions,  the choir room, kbox , or perhaps dancing at home hahah !

But as time passed, i've slowly realised that i'll never be able to go far if i don't do anything with how i look.

I was overweight, and i look totally horrendous then.

Then i started losing hope and eventually totally forgotten about making any effort to pursue my future in the entertainment line.

However, I do not really remember when ( when i was in Secondary 3? ) , i started to take up intensive swimming every weekend, i lost a lot of excess weight. By the end of six months , i got to the skinniest moment of my life i guess, 45kg.

Although i dropped to my ideal weight, the thought of going back to join competition was never there anymore.

Till a year ago, some japanese company started up this certain event that invite girls to send in their pictures to see if they are of standard to be chosen to be part of the event.

It got me really interested.

Don't ask me about the reason , i really don't know . haha !

Approximately three weeks ago, this certain event started to invite girls to send in their photos and details to try to get into the yearly event.

My brother was the one that showed me the audition form, i told my closest friends and families about that.

Few encouraged me to try it out , but majority of them discouraged me due to the working environment that i might be working in the next time i get in. Some of them felt that the environment will not be suitable for me at all.

After weeks of hesitation and consideration about what i really want, i've just sent in my audition form to the organization .

I really really hope i'll receive good news soon to ask me over for the interview.

I want this to be the start of the turning point of my life.

I've never done anything big in my life for myself except for my blogshop. I swear to myself, this shall be the time, i'll start striving for the dreams of my life !

Ganbatte Yumi :)

Exams !

Exams are drawing near, in fact it's tomorrow.

Oh god, i've been really really slack.

Been doing everything and studying the least i guess.

At least that's how i see myself. hahaha.

SBM's really really stress, thanks to the foreign talent i have to be so stress.

I have to secure at 3.9 in order to get into the local university i guess.

Which is like almost impossible already.

Anyway, life's been real good ! :)

Just that i've been falling sick more frequent these days, awwwh ! :(

I just came back from cruise !! It's really really awesome.

Went shopping at KL as well ! 

Anyway , this is just a really really short update.

A rather dull one , anyway, i'm going off to study already.

Love ya guys ! :) 
 

Dominant , Fierce , Unfriendly.

Life's really fine these days.

School started, projects are overwhelming .

Work is tiring , pushing myself to think of more new business ideas :(

I'm both mentally and physically tired.

Hearing more and more about people judging me these days.

haha , yeah this is always happening to me.

But i've grown to face it positively i guess...i hope so.

Here's how i feel.. i'm so going to just blabbler everything out now, here yes.

Heard of haters hating me , and people disliking me just because of my face :)

Wow, isn't it hilarious ?

Well, they did not even speak to me at all before and they start spreading that they hate me etc etc.

hmm, or perhaps hate is too strong a word to describe , perhaps it's dislike.

Well,

Firstly, you guys claim you guys dislike me just because you see my face and you guys find that i'm unfriendly , not sociable , fierce and kiam pa.

HMM...... 

I really really envy you guys. How do you guys even know how a person's personality is when you didn't even speak to the person before ? I really want to learn how you guys do it !

I'm born with this face, so i get haters for so many years, it's just mainly because of my face ?

HELLO ?! I'm born with it.

Yes i know , people have commented that if i don't smile , i look like i want to kill people.

But you guys don't expect me to smile when there's nothing on right ?

Most of the time , i have so many things i'm thinking about on my mind, i just don't smile , to you guys out there, that's fierce ?! Arrogant ?! Not friendly ?!

Look at face you guys can see ? Sigh


It's like you're looking at a bowl of TOM YAM soup , looking so clear and saying that it's not spicy at all :) 

I mean if you guys spoke to me before , you guys say i'm arrogant , fierce, unfriendly , then it make sense, but i really really really DON'T UNDERSTAND how you guys judge me, by my face ?!

Now i'm saying this, friends close to me will know this ,

When i'm sad, i'm angry, i'm arrogant , i'm fierce, i hate someone , i'm disappointed, i'm thinking of something , perhaps even when i'm having constipation , as long as i'm not smiling ..... MY KIAM PA FACE LOOK THE SAME !!! 

Omg , please ! It just doesn't make sense at all ! :(

Secondly, 

It's because of how i wear ?

Come on , it's not like i wear spaghetti top and hot pants to school ?!

Just that i dress a little differently, does not mean i'm arrogant and hard to get along right ?

I love japan stuffs, i import dresses / apparels from overseas to wear , means i'm fierce , not friendly and hard to get along ?

Seriously, what's with you guys ? Or is it really just because of my face ?! Sigh.

I have unique and different taste from you guys , i love flowery, dollish , cute, lacy dresses and accessories , it meant i'm acting cute ?! Then what are japanese girls ?!

OMG!

I don't like wearing black tight body hugging dresses means i'm unsociable ?

I hate clubbing , does that mean i'm not part of this world ?! 

What's with all these ? Really.

Sigh......

I know people are telling me to let all these pass , we can't possibly satisfy everyone , but what i'm hearing is really not very nice.

Things like i'm living under sugar daddy's money, things like i'm just bimbo with big boobs and no brains, things like i have the stupid mix brat face, things like everything i'm having are provided by men .

HELLO !

Wake up you idea can ? Please ?

All the money i'm spending are either from my parents / my own blogshop hard earned money .

Please...if i had a sugar daddy, will i be rushing all my orders everyday , worrying if my blogshop have customers ?!

So what if i carry branded stuffs ? I earned them cents by cents alright :(

Why do you guys stereotype ?!

Or is it that because you guys are doing it to get hands on those branded stuffs that you guys are holding on to ?! 

Those that know me , knows how much i would sacrifice just for them. No matter how tired i am , i will call / text them to ask how are they and if they needed my help.

This is not friendly, arrogant, fierce, not sociable ?!

I might be busy and i may not be able to attend gatherings, but my heart is always with them , sigh .

Here's something....

I'm not arrogant , unfriendly, fierce, it's just my face.

I'm born with it, if you have not talked / interacted with me, you don't have the rights to judge me and start spreading rubbish.

To those who added on and aid in spreading , i feel sad for you , you don't have your own stand , your own mind. You guys are worst than robots. Did they programmed you ? You don't have your own mind ?

Sigh ,

My dear lovelies, please believe me.

Why, why am i always misunderstood , just because of my face that always seem angry ?

I'm unable to choose it too can I ? :(

ps . Come and talk to me, really. I promise ,those are rubbish.. :(

Life , talking about life.....

Hey lovelies, 

I've not been posting much , i guess people will start forgetting about me and all . bwahaha.

Life in marketing is really interesting .

Studying modules like Economics.
Economics makes me feel so clever, hehe . What a suaku here though.

Well, in this lesson now that i'm falling asleep soon .

Effective Writing Skills, OH MY! Perhaps it will aid in me writing better blog post for you guys. All the lovelies!

For those who knows , my birthday was like weeks ago.

Had a really wonderful 18th Birthday.
Lovely classmates bought cakes, wrote letters and cards. How lovely are they ?

The sweetest thing is , some of them , i've hardly speak to them .

I was so touched when i saw their surprises and all. I seriously swear that i will treat them so much better.

I don't wish history to repeat itself like what happened in SIT last year.

I'm going to cherish them more and all.

Having a good group of lovely girl friends too.
Hopefully it will last, at least i'll try my best to love everyone and to keep them .

Okay, sounds wrong , i'm not trying to say it's tough and all , i'm learning to love.

Well people that know what i mean, hahahahah :D

Alright by right a group photo is supposed to but right smacked below, but the picture look so ugly, so i'm seriously thinking if i should put it up .

Okay , i'm not going to put it up .
hehehe !

Ahh , this lesson is so boring .

I'll be having like tests later on at 2pm , hehe !

Wish me luck . :)
 
ps i love shiyin. hehehe! <- look at this girl , my god ! I got forced . heeh!

HEHEH , it's my cutie korillakuma case !! :D hehehhehe

till then ~~ :)

Hello Lovelies,

I've neglected you guys for almost amonth.

This is my first post after getting into the SBM!

Yes, finally, marketing.

Friends are awesome, coursemates , classmates are awesome ! :D

HOWEVER,

Few sad things,

The lecture hall of sbm is not even a quarter of SIT!!

And the LAB is using freaking WINDOWS XP???!

OMG!

Sigh, this is the only time when i miss SIT!

Well, overall the rest of the modules are fine ! :D

But i still have to learn statistics !

Ahh well, pros and cons i can say ! :(

Okay, now am in the lab , studying biz software, access and excel ?! O.o

Ahhh , here i can help mum . :D

Another thing, blogshop is going really fine !

So freaking happy. yayness.

Alright guys, got to go !

Love ya !