The Decision......

All along , i've got this love for the entertainment industry.

Ever since young, i'll always be found at music schools, singing competitions, auditions,  the choir room, kbox , or perhaps dancing at home hahah !

But as time passed, i've slowly realised that i'll never be able to go far if i don't do anything with how i look.

I was overweight, and i look totally horrendous then.

Then i started losing hope and eventually totally forgotten about making any effort to pursue my future in the entertainment line.

However, I do not really remember when ( when i was in Secondary 3? ) , i started to take up intensive swimming every weekend, i lost a lot of excess weight. By the end of six months , i got to the skinniest moment of my life i guess, 45kg.

Although i dropped to my ideal weight, the thought of going back to join competition was never there anymore.

Till a year ago, some japanese company started up this certain event that invite girls to send in their pictures to see if they are of standard to be chosen to be part of the event.

It got me really interested.

Don't ask me about the reason , i really don't know . haha !

Approximately three weeks ago, this certain event started to invite girls to send in their photos and details to try to get into the yearly event.

My brother was the one that showed me the audition form, i told my closest friends and families about that.

Few encouraged me to try it out , but majority of them discouraged me due to the working environment that i might be working in the next time i get in. Some of them felt that the environment will not be suitable for me at all.

After weeks of hesitation and consideration about what i really want, i've just sent in my audition form to the organization .

I really really hope i'll receive good news soon to ask me over for the interview.

I want this to be the start of the turning point of my life.

I've never done anything big in my life for myself except for my blogshop. I swear to myself, this shall be the time, i'll start striving for the dreams of my life !

Ganbatte Yumi :)

Exams !

Exams are drawing near, in fact it's tomorrow.

Oh god, i've been really really slack.

Been doing everything and studying the least i guess.

At least that's how i see myself. hahaha.

SBM's really really stress, thanks to the foreign talent i have to be so stress.

I have to secure at 3.9 in order to get into the local university i guess.

Which is like almost impossible already.

Anyway, life's been real good ! :)

Just that i've been falling sick more frequent these days, awwwh ! :(

I just came back from cruise !! It's really really awesome.

Went shopping at KL as well ! 

Anyway , this is just a really really short update.

A rather dull one , anyway, i'm going off to study already.

Love ya guys ! :) 
 

Dominant , Fierce , Unfriendly.

Life's really fine these days.

School started, projects are overwhelming .

Work is tiring , pushing myself to think of more new business ideas :(

I'm both mentally and physically tired.

Hearing more and more about people judging me these days.

haha , yeah this is always happening to me.

But i've grown to face it positively i guess...i hope so.

Here's how i feel.. i'm so going to just blabbler everything out now, here yes.

Heard of haters hating me , and people disliking me just because of my face :)

Wow, isn't it hilarious ?

Well, they did not even speak to me at all before and they start spreading that they hate me etc etc.

hmm, or perhaps hate is too strong a word to describe , perhaps it's dislike.

Well,

Firstly, you guys claim you guys dislike me just because you see my face and you guys find that i'm unfriendly , not sociable , fierce and kiam pa.

HMM...... 

I really really envy you guys. How do you guys even know how a person's personality is when you didn't even speak to the person before ? I really want to learn how you guys do it !

I'm born with this face, so i get haters for so many years, it's just mainly because of my face ?

HELLO ?! I'm born with it.

Yes i know , people have commented that if i don't smile , i look like i want to kill people.

But you guys don't expect me to smile when there's nothing on right ?

Most of the time , i have so many things i'm thinking about on my mind, i just don't smile , to you guys out there, that's fierce ?! Arrogant ?! Not friendly ?!

Look at face you guys can see ? Sigh


It's like you're looking at a bowl of TOM YAM soup , looking so clear and saying that it's not spicy at all :) 

I mean if you guys spoke to me before , you guys say i'm arrogant , fierce, unfriendly , then it make sense, but i really really really DON'T UNDERSTAND how you guys judge me, by my face ?!

Now i'm saying this, friends close to me will know this ,

When i'm sad, i'm angry, i'm arrogant , i'm fierce, i hate someone , i'm disappointed, i'm thinking of something , perhaps even when i'm having constipation , as long as i'm not smiling ..... MY KIAM PA FACE LOOK THE SAME !!! 

Omg , please ! It just doesn't make sense at all ! :(

Secondly, 

It's because of how i wear ?

Come on , it's not like i wear spaghetti top and hot pants to school ?!

Just that i dress a little differently, does not mean i'm arrogant and hard to get along right ?

I love japan stuffs, i import dresses / apparels from overseas to wear , means i'm fierce , not friendly and hard to get along ?

Seriously, what's with you guys ? Or is it really just because of my face ?! Sigh.

I have unique and different taste from you guys , i love flowery, dollish , cute, lacy dresses and accessories , it meant i'm acting cute ?! Then what are japanese girls ?!

OMG!

I don't like wearing black tight body hugging dresses means i'm unsociable ?

I hate clubbing , does that mean i'm not part of this world ?! 

What's with all these ? Really.

Sigh......

I know people are telling me to let all these pass , we can't possibly satisfy everyone , but what i'm hearing is really not very nice.

Things like i'm living under sugar daddy's money, things like i'm just bimbo with big boobs and no brains, things like i have the stupid mix brat face, things like everything i'm having are provided by men .

HELLO !

Wake up you idea can ? Please ?

All the money i'm spending are either from my parents / my own blogshop hard earned money .

Please...if i had a sugar daddy, will i be rushing all my orders everyday , worrying if my blogshop have customers ?!

So what if i carry branded stuffs ? I earned them cents by cents alright :(

Why do you guys stereotype ?!

Or is it that because you guys are doing it to get hands on those branded stuffs that you guys are holding on to ?! 

Those that know me , knows how much i would sacrifice just for them. No matter how tired i am , i will call / text them to ask how are they and if they needed my help.

This is not friendly, arrogant, fierce, not sociable ?!

I might be busy and i may not be able to attend gatherings, but my heart is always with them , sigh .

Here's something....

I'm not arrogant , unfriendly, fierce, it's just my face.

I'm born with it, if you have not talked / interacted with me, you don't have the rights to judge me and start spreading rubbish.

To those who added on and aid in spreading , i feel sad for you , you don't have your own stand , your own mind. You guys are worst than robots. Did they programmed you ? You don't have your own mind ?

Sigh ,

My dear lovelies, please believe me.

Why, why am i always misunderstood , just because of my face that always seem angry ?

I'm unable to choose it too can I ? :(

ps . Come and talk to me, really. I promise ,those are rubbish.. :(

Life , talking about life.....

Hey lovelies, 

I've not been posting much , i guess people will start forgetting about me and all . bwahaha.

Life in marketing is really interesting .

Studying modules like Economics.
Economics makes me feel so clever, hehe . What a suaku here though.

Well, in this lesson now that i'm falling asleep soon .

Effective Writing Skills, OH MY! Perhaps it will aid in me writing better blog post for you guys. All the lovelies!

For those who knows , my birthday was like weeks ago.

Had a really wonderful 18th Birthday.
Lovely classmates bought cakes, wrote letters and cards. How lovely are they ?

The sweetest thing is , some of them , i've hardly speak to them .

I was so touched when i saw their surprises and all. I seriously swear that i will treat them so much better.

I don't wish history to repeat itself like what happened in SIT last year.

I'm going to cherish them more and all.

Having a good group of lovely girl friends too.
Hopefully it will last, at least i'll try my best to love everyone and to keep them .

Okay, sounds wrong , i'm not trying to say it's tough and all , i'm learning to love.

Well people that know what i mean, hahahahah :D

Alright by right a group photo is supposed to but right smacked below, but the picture look so ugly, so i'm seriously thinking if i should put it up .

Okay , i'm not going to put it up .
hehehe !

Ahh , this lesson is so boring .

I'll be having like tests later on at 2pm , hehe !

Wish me luck . :)
 
ps i love shiyin. hehehe! <- look at this girl , my god ! I got forced . heeh!

HEHEH , it's my cutie korillakuma case !! :D hehehhehe

till then ~~ :)

Hello Lovelies,

I've neglected you guys for almost amonth.

This is my first post after getting into the SBM!

Yes, finally, marketing.

Friends are awesome, coursemates , classmates are awesome ! :D

HOWEVER,

Few sad things,

The lecture hall of sbm is not even a quarter of SIT!!

And the LAB is using freaking WINDOWS XP???!

OMG!

Sigh, this is the only time when i miss SIT!

Well, overall the rest of the modules are fine ! :D

But i still have to learn statistics !

Ahh well, pros and cons i can say ! :(

Okay, now am in the lab , studying biz software, access and excel ?! O.o

Ahhh , here i can help mum . :D

Another thing, blogshop is going really fine !

So freaking happy. yayness.

Alright guys, got to go !

Love ya !

I've disappeared for a while

Hello Lovelies, 

I've disappeared these months, reason being i have no time to blog !

Oh Gosh !

Yes, have been really stressed out with my blogshop.

Deliveries and worrying when the sales are low, seriously it ain't easy.

Well, been working and working, haven't been to school for like two months ?

No, it's not that i skipped school, i changed course !

YES!

I've re-took my o levels and i got better results which got me into a Marketing Diploma.

Many people are really happy for me as well.

Put those grudges aside ( that made part of the biggest motivation for me to leave the course) ,

Somehow i feel i'm going to look like an old grandma if i continue with IT line.

Facing those weird codings. It's like, they know me , I don't know them.

They don't have 'human' level English , it's all the System.out.println() shit.

OMG , now i'm out of it .  like.... HENG AH . 


HAHAHAHA.

Yes, for a while, i'm not going to see some people .

Hopefully this awhile is permanent :D

I mean ya, i'm writing here that i despise brainless ah lians and ah bengs. (no offence for bengs/lians followers)

I'm sorry but they really don't do anything good to Singapore today.

Want some examples ?

That ah lian that boast about slapping her mum and that ah beng Aaron Tan posting that stupid brainless video for YouTube.

I mean if i was a foreigner looking at this from another country, i will be laughing my ass off all these stupid things they are doing.

It's really unbelievable how Singapore has become.

I think after people of the 1990s died, i think it's good game for Singapore if all these ingrates are not going to come to senses.

And the worst part is that there are another big bunch of followers following and supporting all their insensible actions .

THEY ARE SUPPORTING what they are doing.

Oh Gosh , talking about this makes me want to cry.

How are they going to freaking represent Singapore next time ?

Is Singapore going to become a place filled with ingrates and vulgarities next time ?

It's so sad to see Singapore going downhill. Really.

Well, i guess it's enough.

Anyway guys,

I'm doing rather fine now and i'm going to get my driving license soon ! :)


YAYNESS!

Alright,

Catch up with you guys real soon !

p/s : I'm going to post something up that's rather strong-worded for some people, if you guys can't take it, don't read the next post :D

On the Edge of Giving Up....

First thing first....Sorry lovelies for the long long lack of updates, been really busy these days...

Many things happened, changed course and a new career path for me ahead i guess.

Hopefully i'll treasure it this time around. haha.

Been really busy with meetups and making daily trip to post offices lately...

Sigh, i'm feeling like a delivery girl plus packer everyday.

And ya, the best thing is...i'm selling earpiece that is like 350grams per piece including the box, and if it's the headphones it's up to like 1.5kg per piece.

Everyday i'm like carrying 10kg plus of stocks walking around and trying to earn money.

Yes, the income is there, but there's so many things to think about, and to do. And worst part is there's many rough surfaces on my hands now, and all my veins are popping out of my use-to-be-very-smooth hands. :(

Sigh, see already like a sad.....:(

Sometimes i feel it's really not worth it, but when i come to think about the money, i just forget all the weight and popping ultra visible veins and continue on doing it.

Yes, some readers might be thinking " aiya, whole world you think only you doing blogshop meh ? Never see people like you. "

But HELLO ?! 

Those girls are selling cosmetics, contact lenses , clothes which is like ten times lighter than mine.

I dare to say that some guys might not be able to do all these deliveries like i do.

It's very tiring, i mean if so heavy and i get happy customers, IM TOTALLY FINE WITH IT! 

But i just realized that at certain website that is really popular now, the customers there are really stuck-up , they pay a much lower price and yet expect for freaking much. And scold us as though we are not humans.
I seriously don't know if they know what is basic respect, sometimes i feel like shoving my whole fist on their faces -.-''

Sigh, ahh well, like what i've always complained, i think it's destined that i will forever be a delivery girl , running from one mrt station to another ....with all those stocks .

Put shipping free, all keep insisting on meetup... OMG!

And....yes, what i'm selling is just according to the trend, what if the trend stop ? It will be GG, i would have to start thinking of new things to sell already.

It's really tough, yes, to many of the friends of mine, they find that my money flows in like water, but HELLO?! You know how hard it is to serve all these nasty customers not ?!

WANT CHEAP AND FRESH AND GOOD!!! Seriously....omg. :( 

Anyway, i'm just seriously considering if i should continue on, but of course most probably after this round of blabbering i will still continue on with it.

It's like so difficult then i will have a blogshop that's near success, i can't bear to give it up just like that...i can't bear to...

SIGH....

HUGE DILEMMA! :(

I think i just have to sleep it off :(

Goodnights lovelies.

ps : I wish i had a car, 

then i would not have to carry all the heavy stocks and sit the over populated mrt ! :(